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bloodyfries ¡ 2 months ago
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I headcanon that sometimes certain things will trigger very vivid flashbacks to Shen Qingqiu's (Shen Yuan's) past world.
One second he's navigating an unusually dense crowd of people during some kind of festival; the next second hes walking in a big city (we'll say Shanghai just bc) with all the lights and the people
He descending the stairs in a stone tower (probably some investigation about people in a nearby village going missing) and the next thing he knows he's in the stairwell in his apartment because the elevator broke
He splashes water on his face one morning and for a second he's back in his apartment's bathroom. His vision blury because he doesn't have his glasses, not just because he has water in his eyes
One day he's getting lectured about without a cure by Mu Qingfang, he blinks and his martial brother is suddenly a modern doctor (yes I head cannon sy as having a clinical illness like most of the fandom)
He's pouring over documents and paperwork with Binghe and suddenly he's studying for exams (or doing hw) with his college roommate
I think a lot about this
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randumblygeneratedusername ¡ 25 days ago
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“…they all shared a certain coolness, a cruel, mannered charm which was not modern in the least but had a strange cold breath of the ancient world.”
The Secret History by Donna Tartt
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crazydaymycrazyway ¡ 7 months ago
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In the modern era when they're still not dating
Hua Cheng: How does this shirt look, gege?
Xie Lian: It looks great, San Lang! I wish I could pull that off.
Hua Cheng: Go ahead
Xie Lian: What?
Hua Cheng: What.
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definegodliness ¡ 1 month ago
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23-10-2024
World
The world is aching, Yet some people thrive In hostile environments; Some people thrive in Realms without soul or substance; Some people are Brutalist-by-heart, and prefer The tones of concrete over green; They prevent philosophers asking Stupid questions about falling trees. So, really, the world is Not Aching, I am.
--- 23-10-2024, M.A. Tempels Š
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mechanicadaver ¡ 10 months ago
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Inuyasha enjoying some chicken nuggets in the modern world.
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mrs-starkgaryen ¡ 3 months ago
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Ewan Mitchell, what a babe
⁉️(My other polls)⁉️
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ewanmitchelll ¡ 11 months ago
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Imagine Taylor Swift’s songs (I): Cruel Summer.
Imagine it’s a modern world and you, such a good girl, fall in love with Aemond Targaryen. But worst is… he’s already taken.
Warnings: fluff; drama, light smut. Rom-Com vibes.
***
You are Helaena’s best friend since college when you took a few of biology’s classes for your course. A bound that now surpasses times, you are often seen around at the Targaryen’s household, an inheritance of Helaena’s father to her, which she shares with Aemond and Aegon, her brothers.
Initially, Aegon had taken a like of you, but by then you were in a relationship, so nothing came to it. However, now you are single again and trying not to get yourself involved in further relationships when cupid seems to play with you again.
How could you know, but an opportunity to travel with Helaena and Aemond came up.
“It’s summer”, Laena is telling you as you have just arrived for Aegon’s party. House is full and you are dressed elegantly for the occasion, but you two are outside because your friend is not very fond of noisy people. “We should travel to countryside. Do you want to come with us?”
“Us who, Laena?”, you tilt your head, sipping your champagne. “And when do you plan to go?”
“Me and Aemond. We don’t like these parties Aegon throw, you know. So we want to get away as soon as we can”, she gives you a mischievous smirk.
You raise your eyebrows. Aemond is the one with a bad boy fame, socially awkward, and whom you rarely had seen these years. Nonetheless, like Helaena, he doesn’t strike your as the type of not fond of partying.
“He’s just busy working with his PhD in Humanities”, she tells you when seeing your puzzled look. “So why don’t we take a break, eh? It’s not as if Aegon will get hurt if we do.”
“Okay… but when do you want to go?”, you’d think this is typical of Aegon to party hard and have his siblings out for the weekend.
“Soon.”
“How soon? I didn’t bring my clothes, I am not prepared to do a long trip”, you protest.
Laena, also enjoying her champagne more than she’d like to admit, waves her hand dismissively.
“It’s no big deal. We are sisters. What is mine is yours.”
Little surprised you are that she has such an influence over you. When have you ever denied her anything?
Knowing this, Laena beams and hugs you.
“You are the best!”
***
Dressed in dark green robes, walking unaffectedly, Aemond spots you and Laena giggling. He sighs, wondering why on earth he’d agree with his sister’s plans on getting away of Aegon’s party.
But then again, he loves a great escape, doesn’t he? Often the dramatic, as their mother likes to snort about.
When seeing you, he cannot help but noticing your curves, taking some time in admiring your cleavage. Then something comes to his mind and Aemond is forced to look away, although he captures a blush painting your cheeks which pleases him very much.
“Well, ladies? Y/N, nice to see you again.” He nods at you.
You feel so suddenly disconcerted that all you can do is nod back. Helaena, not noticing what had just happened, jumps in his arms, thanking him many times for this adventure the three of you are about to have.
You are still processing his gaze, noticing his alluring presence, when he takes you to his very fancy car. As you slide to the back seat, behind Helaena’s, you seem to forget how to breath.
Bad, bad boy. Shiny toy with a price(…) Devils roll the dices, angels roll their eyes.
As soon as he starts driving, every sound dies when Helaena starts to snore. Aemond sees through the rear view that you are uncomfortable so he decides to break the ice.
“Is everything well there?”
You spot a smirk dancing in those lips. And you blame on the alcohol for picturing yourself on his lap and kissing him fervently.
You clear your throat so you focus. Aemond is slightly amused by your awkwardness.
“I… Yes, yes, it is. I was just overthinking. A bad tendency of mine, I suppose.”
“What is it that you are overthinking about?”, he inquires you, possibly aware of the cause of it and instigating you to speak it…
“It’s a silly reason. I don’t often take chances like this, traveling out of the blue, completely unprepared.”
If Aemond is disappointed with the answer, he doesn’t let it show. But he chuckles, though.
“There’s nothing wrong with planning if you don’t forget how to live your life.”
You tilt your head, detesting how easily you lock eyes with him.
“What’s living your life for you in this aspect?”
Aemond side smirks at you.
“For once, not letting others bossy me around.”
You laugh quietly.
“I don’t think you are easily bossed, Aemond.”
He raises his eyebrows.
“What exactly are your thoughts about me, Miss Y/N?”
“I see you so little that I couldn’t form my judgement of you, Aemond”, you smile at him. “Though I don’t think I can judge anyone at all.”
“Not even if they do bad things?”
“What bad things have you done?”
He seems to stay quiet for a while, watching regret rise to your eyes as you don’t like this silence that hangs between you two so suddenly.
“Some things are better left unsaid”, Aemond sort of justifies. “Look, we are here.”
As he carefully wakes Helaena and takes her inside, you struggle with balance as you leave the car. It’s three in the morning, and you wait as some lights are turned on by Aemond, watching as he carries his sister inside.
The house is a typical lake house, or so you think, comfortable and made of wood. The walls are painted in a light shade of green and you can tell that everywhere else is larger: there are trees surrounding you, a firepit, and boats. Yeah, definitely it’s a lake house.
“Are you staying there?”, you hear a voice calling you out.
Coming to the car to pack small bags is Aemond. You notice his hair is short.
“Did you cut your hair?”, you ask him.
He gives you an amused glance before helping leading you inside—since you are still under effect of alcohol.
“Yeah I did. Did you like it?”, he smiles at you when seeing you blush.
“Maybe”, you whisper, hoping he doesn’t listen.
But he does. Aemond finds you adorable.
“Thanks, princess. So…Here you are. You can stay at my mother’s room and use her clothes. Or I could get some of Laena’s for you.”
“Thank you for being so kind. Are you sure it’s okay if I wear something…?”
“Yeah. She likes you all right, she wouldn’t mind.” He could have added that Mrs Alicent hates his girlfriend, for example, but he doesn’t share this detail yet.
You nod, not realizing Aemond’s been studying you.
“Thank you once again”, you raise your eyes to smile at him.
Aemond’s taken aback by the innocence stamped in your features. No reason why you are friends with Laena, he thought.
“Anytime.” He nods his head and leaves, wishing to ignore that so suddenly a spark came uninvited.
You watch him go, disappointed. But turning to close the door, you move to the comfortable bed and drop asleep. All else is briefly forgotten.
For now.
***
What doesn’t kill me makes me want you more.
For a strange reason you are the first to wake up the next day. You look for a swim suit since the morning is apparently hot—no more a prelude to summer, but it in itself—, decided to have a go at the lake.
It’s a beautiful sight from Mrs Alicent’s quarters: when pulling away the curtains, you are in awe at the dark blue lake that runs deep, cut by houses that stand from two sides of the land. There are already boats on, children having fun and adults too. You smile as you hear the birds singing, it’s all so peaceful and inviting.
After washing your face and brushing your teeth, you opt for making yourself coffee when to your surprise Aemond is already preparing it.
“Up so early?!”, you cannot help yourself.
Aemond is shirtless this morning, only wearing pants. You struggle to keep yourself composed as your eyes scan his well build muscles.
Oh Lord.
It’s what you think, detesting to feel some ache in your feminine parts. But thankfully you are able to repress your impressions as he looks at you with an amused smirk displayed on his lips.
“Yes. A bad habit. I’m surprised you are up early. It’s not even nine o’clock yet”, with a move of his head he invites you to sit at the table that is behind him.
As you do so, you reply:
“I couldn’t set myself to sleep properly. I suppose it’s because I am not used to new beds.”
As he finishes cooking some eggs and preparing coffee, Aemond serves you breakfast.
“I can imagine. We did all so suddenly. But in honesty it’s for the best. Aegon’s parties are too much for us”, he tells you. “We only show up to greet guests and that’s it. After a couple of drinks he doesn’t notice us anymore.”
You frown at that.
“I’m sorry to hear that”, you say as you drink coffee.
Black coffee. The way you like it. You smile in content, a sight most pleasant to see. Aemond smiles back.
“Do you like black coffee too, uh? It’s perfect for me as well. But don’t be sorry. It is what it is. What about you? You are familiar with our dysfunctional family, but I know nothing of yours.”
You’d never think Aemond could be talkative if he so wanted. Turns out, however, you are the one who, when encouraged, speaks a lot. But he actually listens when you tell him about your divorced parents, how you ended up living with your grandparents, your profession, everything.
“I think I overshared, didn’t I?”, you think out loud, embarrassed.
“I don’t think you did”, he smiles at you, locking eyes with you again, giving you that same aching you feel obliged to repress. “I’m protective to Helaena and I lament I had no opportunity to get to know her best friend better.”
You tilt your head with a gentle smile on your face.
“So am I a suitable companion for her?”
He is still watching you intently when he says:
“Of course you are, Y/N. Now let’s get you to the lake.”
*
How the hell are you on his back and holding him tight like a monkey? You don’t know how easily he convinced you doing that, but here you are. Holding your legs, Aemond runs to the lake and…
SPLASH.
You are both under the cold water. But you are still holding onto him as you laugh out loud.
“You are crazy!”
He turns his head lightly so he can match your gaze. A smile is on his lips when he says:
“Am I?”
“The lake seems too deep for me!”, you justify for remaining locked onto his back.
Aemond raises an eyebrow, not minding at all that you are there—he knows he should, but he likes to feel your warmth against him, his fingertips still caressing your thighs.
“It’s completely safe though”, says he, unwilling to let go of you. “Hold on tight, monkey. I’ll take you to the other side of the lake.”
It’s a fun morning for both of you. Staying like this so close, only reluctantly you part to dive in these blue waters, ignoring his lustful gaze at your curves, he hates how easily such thoughts occur him.
And worst. It’s not only about carnal, but when you two speak, it is as if everything is connected. A sentiment, he perceives, so evident in your y/c eyes.
But the moment is briefly gone when Helaena shows up at the window and yells:
“How naughty of you for not waiting for me!”
***
These first days end up in a first week. Every morning you and Aemond leave your beds early to swim together. Every morning, a new intimacy seems to flow.
But it’s only when sun rises slowly in the first hours that you two can spend some time together by yourselves…or when Helaena is the first to retire after a long day.
In late nights, you two watch movies, share a beer and thoughts. But when it becomes too unbearable to keep away this tension between one another. Something happens.
A bell rings.
“Can you open the door, please?”, Aemond asks you as he’s preparing your favorite breakfast. He’s all smiley today, completely forgetful of the consequence of his getaway.
“Of course”, you smile too, sensing his eyes on you as you are dressing shorts today a blue bikini on top.
But when you open the door, you don’t find Aegon or any Targaryen relative on the other side. Instead a taller, dark-haired sensual woman looks you up and down, making you feel embarrassed of yourself.
“H-Hello”, you try not to forget your manners. “Good morning. May I help him?”
“Is Aemond Targaryen here?”, she asks you cooly.
You try to act in a nonchalant manner as you are under those judging eyes.
“He is. I’m sorry, but who are you?”
“Oh”, the older woman seems pleased to find you in ignorance. “He hasn’t had the grace to tell you about me? I’m Alys Rivers, his girlfriend.”
***
So cut the headlights, summer’s a knife. (…) It’s blue, the feeling I’ve got.
You are sitting in front of the firepit eating your marshmallow as you consider the last events. In a matter of thirty days, your mind has been fed with what you now realize to be an illusion.
You fell for his smile, desired his body, admired his wit. You felt heard and seen for the first time in your life. You thought that he encouraged you in holding him tight, smelling his scent when you dived in together… or when you danced after getting drunk with a couple of beers.
Now these memories are poisoned with the fact he fooled you. How cruel. But you should know better, bad boys don’t like good girls.
Tears raise to your eyes, but you swallow them. You don’t see Helaena coming to your side. The two of you stay silent until she breaks it.
“I’m sorry, Y/Nickname.”
“Why are you feeling sorry for, my dear?”, you ask her, confused.
“Because I didn’t tell you he’s been taken. But honestly I was surprised he accepted my crazy idea of spending some weeks of this summer break without his girlfriend. No one likes her, really. She’s crazy.”
You smile at her attempts to cheer you up.
“It’s okay. I understand, truthfully.”
“You’d be a better girlfriend, though”, she smiles back, giggling when seeing a weak blush painting your cheeks. “It’s true. Mama loves you, and no one else is diplomatic like you.”
You scoff at her. A different aching has your heart breaking.
“Helaena, my honey. Don’t get yourself delusional. It does us little good. But I appreciate it though. Truthfully.”
Though your words aim to a self protection, you need a comfortable embrace and Helaena, knowing you, promptly gives it to you. You two stay like this for a while until she says:
“There is a party going on at the neighbor’s.”
You look up at her and say:
“I thought you didn’t like these kind of parties.”
“Aegon’s parties”, she corrects you, pleased to make you smile. “Come on. It can be fun.”
You wish you had an arguments to say no, but seeing Helaena is actually excited to go to the neighbor’s party, you decide to join her. After changing clothes—you dress a white top and a black skirt with red high heels; and Laena is dressing a short dress—you finally go to the party, pleased that at least with Aemond and Alys gone, you’d not have to see them again.
***
I’m drunk in the back of the car. And I cried like a baby coming home from the bar. Said “I’m fine”, but it wasn’t true.
When seeing Laena having a great time with the said neighbor, a handsome lad named Jacaerys, you raise your eyebrows at her insistence in going there. You laugh to yourself, letting her having her fun all the while you look for yours.
You grab one and then another beer. Losing track of time, you prefer to dance like crazy at the gardens. All of this and you don’t see him crossing the limits that separate Jacaerys’s gardens to the Targaryens’s ones. You don’t see him rushing after you, face carefully in check.
You don’t know his desperate thoughts. Couldn’t even think he’s realized a little too late that you captured his heart, taking as he is, never indulging in his bad boy fame or expecting him to be better.
And here he is. Aware he has your heart broken, by never being honest with you about his connection with that woman that is now his ex, he comes to pursuit you.
“Y/Nickname”, his husky voice comes at you.
And you freeze as you turn around only to watch him standing in front of you.
“Aemond”, you avoid his gaze.
“There are so many things to be said. I should have told you I was in a relationship”, he says urgently, trying to take your hands but he is hurt when you give a step back. “I’m sorry. I didn’t mean it. I was trying to run from her and…”
But you are not listening. You take a long sip of the beer and decide to go back home. Aemond, however, is not a quitter.
“Y/N!” He then holds your arm, making you look at him. “I’m sorry. What can I do to earn your forgiveness?”
I don’t wanna keep secrets to keep you. (…) And I screamed for whatever it’s worth “I love you”. Ain’t that the worst thing you ever heard?
“I hate you”, and for the very first time you burst in tears. “Leave me alone.”
“No. I won’t”, he is firm on that. “I love you.”
“It’s a little too late for that”, you suddenly realize you two have snuck in the gardens of Aemond’s parents’ summer household.
But he’s too close to you now. Aemond’s eyes are so expressive and when you find his blue ones…
“You don’t love me”, you accuse him, heart racing.
“I do. I fucking love you, Y/N Y/LN. I left everything to be with you, to fix my damned mistakes”, he cups your face and you spot some tears in his eyes. “In losing me, I found you.”
You know he’s being sincere. He is the devil and you are the angel. But then what? You love him regardless.
***
His lips taste so good, his tongue sliding into your mouth makes you shiver. There is drunkness and sobriety in one kiss, mixed all the way. But neither seems to mind.
You are now at the couch, hands quickly removing his shirt, your nails ensuring to leave your mark in his skin.
“Goodness me, woman!”, he groans, aroused. “Never took you as a possessive one.”
You smirk at him, but there is little time to answer as his mouth dives into your neck, pulling gently your hair as his hand slides to your sides. Finally he parts, breathlessly so, as he lifts your shirt and helps removing your skirt.
The way he watches you makes you dripping wet.
“You are so mine”, says Aemond in the kind of authority voice that accepts no otherwise.
“That I am, sir”, you kiss his lips passionately, your hands going to his pants and there working out with his rigid manhood. “As much as you are mine.”
Your mind, however, goes blank the moment he begins to play with your breasts. You moan hotly in his ear, trying to focus, but damn it’s so difficult.
“My dear Y/N”, he moans your name in such a way.
It’s been a cruel summer, indeed, when every teasing has not prepared for its consummation. And now he has you under his command, lifting your legs to stay in between, playing with your feminine parts as his mouth takes a long time in each nipple, making you moan louder and louder.
“So wet for me”, he groans against your skin, pleased to be responsible for your yearnings. “Fuck!”
He lifts his face to contemplate yours all the whilst preparing to slide his manhood into you. Locking your hands above your head, he smirks down at you.
“I corrupted you, my sweet angel”, Aemond bites down your lips. He now spots some bruises showing on your skin.
“I redeem you”, you say softly.
He smiles at you.
“My savior”, he leans to kiss you slowly. “I love you.”
“I love you too.”
And thus the night is the only witness of how one surrenders to the other in endless making love.
***
Epilogue.
It’s that family barbecue. Aemond watches as you interact with his relatives, a proud side smirk on his display.
“Finally you got rid of that woman”, he listens to Alicent’s pleased sigh. “I always knew Y/N was the right one for the family.”
“For me, mother. For me”, the silver haired male corrects her arrogantly. “She’s my future wife.”
Alicent beams at his son.
“Does she know?”
Unconsciously you turn your head and flash him a big smile. You love his family, but you love him more. Aemond doesn’t resist staying away from you. He just winks at his mother before going at you.
Snaking his arms around your waist, he rests his chin over your shoulder and side eyes at you.
“What?”, you tell him in between giggles as you sense his stare.
“Be my wife”, he blurts out.
Your jaw drops, not really expecting that. But there’s no need to think twice.
“Yes, of course.”
And then you two live happily ever after.
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The Call of the Stars - I
Summary: Isabella, or Izzy, has her life turned upside down when, within days, an unexpected visitor summons her to return to her true home, Prythian. As long-buried secrets emerge and reality distorts around her, Izzy finds herself forced to confront a forgotten past and a destiny she never imagined. With the weight of a shocking revelation and a new journey unfolding, she must discover what it truly means to “go home” and what is at stake for her and the world she has been forced to leave behind.
Pairing: Azriel x OC (Eventually)
The rights to the ACOTAR universe and characters go to the author, Sarah J. Maas.
I - The Return to the Unexpected
The dorm door closed behind me with a soft click, but the sound echoed in my mind like distant thunder. I could still feel the warmth of my mother’s embrace, the soft caresses in my hair, but none of it could dispel the whirlwind of questions screaming inside me. How could she be there, untouched by time, while the world continued to spin outside? My hands shook slightly as I leaned on the table beside my bed. Prythian. The name echoed in my head, an ancient whisper I had never heard before, but now felt like it was a part of me. What else was she not telling me? And why did I feel, deep down, that everything was about to change? I needed to get back to her. There were so many unanswered questions, so many untold stories, and time was against me.
...
It was no secret that one of the Night Court’s great triumphs in the stratagem of all Prythian politics was its shadowsinger, Azriel. His shadows, companions even in his centuries-long solitude, brought information from every court on the continent, which, coupled with the reinforced protective shields of his court, made it very well protected. There was nothing that entered or left his lands that was not known. Or was there? “Are you sure about that?” Rhys’s muffled sigh echoed throughout his imposing office. This was becoming a recurring theme. Now, almost every night, the shadows seemed to stir around Azriel, always returning with the same message: “Visitor… visitor… border… visitor at the border.” It was becoming unnerving, and the shadowsinger was increasingly appearing with dark circles under his eyes. Every night he made sure to check the information, at the very least worrying, from his shadows, but nothing — or rather, no one — was found in the kilometers traveled. Azriel rarely disregarded the warnings of his shadows, but in this case, he very much wished he could believe that they were just a bad joke. After all, they were shadows, as lonely as the bearer who lived with them; perhaps they did not understand the real meaning of a joke. But Azriel could not shake the feeling that something big was about to happen — something that not even the incredible shadow singer of the Night Court could foresee, something that, even if he denied it, messed with his ego. "I will check, then," the High Lord of the Night Court said, rising from his large chair and resting his hands on the table, his violet gaze as tired as his brother's. “No,” Azriel protested immediately, spreading his wings slightly as he uncrossed his muscular arms and stood in front of him, preventing Rhys from leaving the office without confronting him first. “You go back to bed, and I will,” he added determinedly.
Even though he was tired, he seemed willing to fight to stop his friend and brother of consideration. "My shadows are my problems, I'll deal with them. Rest," he said finally, casting a disappointed glance at the shadows, who stirred at the act, looking offended. "You're as exhausted as Feyre and I were in the first few days with Nix," Rhysand commented, rubbing his eyes to stay awake. "I'm the one who should tell you to go rest. You look terrible, brother." With a wry smile, Rhys looked back at Az, who snorted at the weak attempt to ease the tension. "At least Nix is ​​a cute little baby… I don't think we can say the same about our mysterious visitor," Azriel pointed out, moving out of Rhys's way to sit in the chair large enough to fit his Illyrian wings effortlessly. " “We don’t know if that’s true, don’t forget that,” Rhys joked, walking past Az and patting the spy on the shoulder encouragingly. “If you insist so much, let’s go together, then.” Before Azriel could argue with his High Lord, he had already sifted to the west of his border, the less guarded part and therefore more likely to harbor possible unidentified foreigners who preferred to keep a low profile.
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It might even be crazy, but I couldn't help but get this story straight. There was no way it could be true. The more rational part of my brain had already dismissed that night when I saw my mother as an extremely vivid and emotional dream. It had been so long since I had seen her, and the memories of her reading fantasy stories must have been integrated into my dreams. There was no other plausible explanation. But a smaller part of me insisted on questioning: could that have been real? It seemed so fragile, that moment, so abstract, but also so real… This was all driving me crazy. That's why I'm marching to the boarding school secretary now. Maybe I can throw a bait to find out if my mother really came to see me yesterday or if I'm just being neurotic in this place. My eyes calmly move from the polished wooden floor, which reflects the artificial light of the ceiling lamps, to the rest of the incredibly dull hallway. The blank white walls seem to absorb the little light, making the environment even more oppressive. The floor, despite being well-maintained, felt cold and impersonal beneath my feet. Nothing really happened here; the silence, punctuated by the footsteps of hurried students, was almost deafening. The atmosphere here had always been a reflection of the monotony I felt. Each hallway seemed like a repetition of the previous one, an endless maze of identical passages and doors that opened onto lifeless rooms. I felt like each day was a copy of the previous one, and this was beginning to weigh on me, as if each step down the hallway was a reminder of my own stagnation.
I think about Tom and the memories I've made here, and a feeling of nostalgia and longing mixes with sadness. I remember the afternoons spent in the boarding school garden, where Tom and I would talk about our hopes and dreams, far from the rules and prying eyes. The laughter and quiet moments with him are the only things that gave me a reason to face the monotonous day-to-day life of this place.
As I approach eighteen, I feel a mixture of relief and anxiety. Boarding school and its rigid rules will soon be a thing of the past, and the future lies before me like a blank canvas. The idea of ​​finally escaping the boring routine is exciting, but it also makes me apprehensive about what comes next. Tom and I have always had big dreams for when we leave here, and now that the time is approaching, it's impossible not to question whether we're ready for what awaits us. I would even find it funny how, whatever the reality of what happened yesterday, everything takes me away from everything I am so used to and resigned to, I would say. But the truth is that there is a big difference between an expected future and one that I have somehow chosen and shaped for myself. When did my life become so complicated? Oh, yes, since the moment my father died and my mother was arrested. The gossip in the neighborhood painted her as his murderer, a heartless con artist who had premeditated every detail: my birth out of wedlock, my father's premature death, and the vile accusations that followed. What sons of bitches…
- Hello, Mrs. Elizabeth— I start to speak, but my voice fails me when I see the newspaper spread out haphazardly on the kind lady's desk. My heart races and a lump forms in my throat. Anger boils inside me, and my hands, without realizing it, clench into fists so tight that my fingers hurt. The newspaper headline screams with unexpected cruelty: 'Notorious Small Town Con-Murderer Released.' The image of my mother takes up almost the entire page, her expression marked by sadness and exhaustion. I feel the blood rush to my head, my body shaking slightly with frustration and helplessness. The thought of how the image and the words expose my mother's pain and shame only increases my anguish. My stomach turns, and the anger turns into a wave of tears that I fight to hold back. How is this possible? How can my mother, who was so wrongly convicted, be portrayed like this? I wonder if there is any truth to the accusations or if it is all a cruel game. My heart aches as I think of how she must have felt back then, so long ago, exposed and helpless.
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llovelymoonn ¡ 1 year ago
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hi, could i request a web on turning older. I was talking to my friend yesterday, and turning 30 seems so terrifying, at the same time it also seems normal just like another. But I'm not able to turn my back to all the responsibilities and what people expect of me, to all that i have set myself to achieve before this "30 milestone"
Absolutely love your blog btw. So glad i found you in this platform :)
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bloodyfries ¡ 22 days ago
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I need more Shen family fics
Not Shen twins, or SY being SJ's son, none of that (though I still love those au's). I need fics about Shen Yuan's family from his past life
I absolutely love fics that do that
Especially when they portray Shen Yuan and his siblings (and how they effected him, even as SQQ)
Did Shen Yuan learn to braid hair for his little sister? Did one of his older brothers teach him how to do a good poker face? Did they all hang out? How did they fight? How did they bond? What were core memories that they share? Did their parents have a favorite? Who was Shen Yuan closest to?
How did they each react to his death?
Do they miss him?
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zorossugarmama ¡ 1 month ago
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I just know that if Ace was still alive and living in the modern world he would love to be in a monster truck derby…
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hansdurrer ¡ 3 months ago
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Coppet, Suisse, 15 AoĂťt 2024
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definegodliness ¡ 20 days ago
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2-11-2024
The numbers don't work anymore
Flaws become More and more endearing to me, Manifesting reality Against the filters catering to the Mean of what is to be considered Aesthetically pleasing. Wanted. Needed. I feel Battered by the desires of the Masses, orchestrated. Therein, Propagated Singular. Then, I must be so lonesome, Flawed. Human. Human? What part, then? I am Slowly drifting away from collective intent, And, at the same time, swimming against The stream of my innate communal sense, Embracing entropy. Bored. Real.
--- 2-11-2024, M.A. Tempels Š
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env0writes ¡ 9 months ago
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A Feud to Carry Vol. 2, 2.14.24 “Isolated Distance”
Fluorescent light reflects off my glasses A loud sound–outside, a car passes Rolling like thunder, like frightening, resound Heat in my bedroom, headache tapping-pound Wake for water, wake for watering Towards the day, groggily tottering Artificial light and moving pictures Placed on screen and permanent fixtures When next will I see au natural When next will I see, embrace, my pal? In the waking world, with eyes grown with me tired Withing deep valleys, atop great mountains, where passions are required
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jackattack90909 ¡ 1 year ago
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Monster Hunter Now (lagiacrus)
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